Well, it has been a long while since I posted. I think I needed an emotional break for a time. In the past few months, I have found out that although my FSH levels are completely normal after a Clomid Challenge test, my AMH level is low. Which means that I don't have very good ovarian reserve. So, I feel so anxious every month knowing that my eggs are just dwindling away!
I tried Femara for 2 months and Ovidrel (Hcg trigger) one month, but didn't have any luck. I actually called a psychic medium on Sirius radio ( that is how crazy I have become) and she told me I would be pregnant in June. But, my period started today, so she is very wrong. What in the world was I thinking??
My due date recently came and went and with every period that comes, I just relive it all. Is this normal? It doesn't feel very normal to me. Nobody really understands me and everyone has moved on, except for me.
I am supposed to have an HSG in a few days to make sure my tubes are not blocked, so maybe that will be the answer. In my job, I see so many patients who either don't want the baby they are carrying or don't deserve one. Very frustrating! I actually quit the other day and I think that will bring me to some peace.
Anyway, just had to get some stuff off my mind so that I wouldn't go crazier.